Wednesday, February 28, 2007

esmond: must become ssn then can become sister.
me: ltr i 26 yrs old become sister! hahahaha!
esmond: must 5/6 yrs then become ssn
me: go uni then 1/2 yrs can become ssn le. but maybe ltr study halfway drop out go and become zookeeper! hahaha!
*everyone laughs*
sze han/lishan: why zookeeper?
me: cus i rather face animals then humans.
jaei: yah, since 1st day of attachment alr want to become zookeeper.
*e punchline of e joke*
esmond (trying to understand why we want to become zookeeper finally said..) : cus animals dont press call bell.

..........................

everyone laughed like crazy in the tea room.


You put the spike in my heart

Will it wash away this jet black feeling?


25/02
went to jack's place to cel both kel's & miao's bday
here are e vids.
kel's bday
went to his blk to surprise him. wanted to stop e lift at every flr. but, failed.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qviFQ8HhcXY
miao's bday
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DGpIklbGCgk


i admit, things went wrong partly due to my temper.
im sorry, when im angry i just cant smile and act as if though nth has happen.
i know tht we walked off w/o saying anything was also wrong. but, so what if we go.
not everyone was happy alr.
but like what mos had said. everything is just a misunderstanding.
communication breakdown. all of us assume.
nxt time if we go out agn, let's just not assume.

i read hoonie's blog. she's right.

im writing all these, definitely not on impluse. i've thought for 1 day. i know e consequences.

e definition for friends its like a long list. it just goes on & on, there's no definite ans to it.
but i definitely know, sowing discord is not one of em.
its e 2nd time. rubbing salt on e wound.
1st time it was cheryl & church.
now? miao & jack's.
if e guys talk, u dont need to go agree or say sth else.
let's get this straight. go to jack's place is not to accompany miao to go jack's to eat.
its to celebrate miao's & kel's bday.
its e both of em.
before msging everyone, i've alr asked kel for his opinion too. i did not only get consent frm miao.
i understand its to celebrate their bday. not his. not hers. its THEIR.
and if u really dont have enough $$, reply my msg! say dont have enough money. not until tht very day, then complain so ex. don't have enough money. (i know got alot of ppl dont have enough money too but who reply & tell me dont have enough money?) i believe if anyone reply back say no $ all of us could come up w another place. and not like until tht day then say why not let's not go jack's place go somewhere else? seats were booked alr.
im not sure whether u were comfortable or uncomfortable or happy or shuang or thinking maybe u shld stop when saying all those things to e guys & e 2 girls over there. but have u got any idea tht u are rubbing salt on e wound?
look at e guys, i dont think they will ever do such things to any of e guys. putting down any of e guys in front of so many girls. how abt u? cheryl & miao.
and. respect!
we are friends. we shld be understanding towards one another. dont raise sensitive issues.
maybe u guys not tht fervent. every week/every 2 or 3 days in a week go temple. perphas u guys just pray at home. but christians got to obeserve the Sabbath day.
we've all got different thoughts/committments to our religion.

i rmb at one of e theolo's counselling sessions. sis mag was asking whether do we face difficulties either w your friends or anything (if i did not rmb wrongly). i rmb she asked emmalyn.
and she said, no. cus its her friends. like not anyone. they respected her & what she do. so sis mag asked her whether her friends will like ask her out on sat and say aiyah dont need go church, go out w us luh.
emma said sth like alr said its friends. and they respect. understand. so they know and won't ask her out on sat. will find other days.
at tht moment, i was thinking abt all of u. i clearly rmb e first image which pops out was jasmen's face. (lol!)
i really hope tht u guys would be understanding.
it really hurts. cus u guys are not like anyone. not hi-bye friends. like who gives a damn to what they say. who will feel e pain? no.
but its all because, its you guys.

actually everyone shld reflect. why & how things would come to such a state.
i reflected.
my temper. my attitude. i was too agitated. im petty. my pride. & walking off w/o saying anything.

i know alot of ppl say they give up alr. including me. but stop decieving ourselves.
deep within our hearts, have we really give up?
if we give up. think abt it.
when we grow old or anytime aft we give up, &when we start to reminisce those days we had in zhenghua, no one would be there w u laughing at how stupid we look at tht time, or how childish we were anymore. cus we gave up. even if there is, it would be only 2/3 ppl. then what's e conclusion after reminiscing?
"anyway, no use thinking back, we gave up alr. no longer a grp. not gna go back to sch to visit or whatever tgether anymore." tht's e conclusion.
but of cus, not only reminiscing. & i believe we will regret. cus i guess by giving up, it would leave a mark (/crack) behind in this friendship.
things could be back to last time, if all of us give in, forget abt our pride, admit what we had done was wrong, respect one another, be understanding, don't "shoot" any one anymore & just take it nth has happen & tht its just a bad dream. and let's wake up & wash up & have big breakfast at mac! :D

i still want to keep in touch and meet up even when we grow old and laugh at u guys when u all become BO GEY. hahahaha!!!! i think we will all look cute w missing teeth. lolol!!! & perhaps, kel u can look like how u were like during sec 1&2. but no teeth only.

okay, at least that's what i thought.
nxt bday, jasmen's.

to be or not to be.

ytd, 2602
realise its not like before. cannot do w/o breakfast anymore.
hypoglycemia.
but its kinda good. haha! get to rest in sisters' office, had longer breaks.
was given milo & sweetssss. haha!

tday! 2702
was late, had to hail cab down to sgh.
and.. tadang!!! this's e cab :D its like those typical family car. miao even called and ask who's car we boarded.
its a taxi!! lol!
on e way to sgh, we watch mr bean's cartoon. HAHAHAHA!
even thou its $2.80 not $2.50. its worth it! comfortable, & most imptly! u can watch tv! :DD

mr bean & his green car. haha!
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can accomodate 7 passengers.

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Monday, February 26, 2007

In this moment we can't close the lids on burning eyes
Our memories blanket us with friends we know like fallout vapors
Steel corpses stretch out towards an ending sun, scorched and black
It reaches in and tears your flesh apart
As ice cold hands rip into your heart
That's if you've still got one that's left inside that cave you call a chest
And after seeing what we saw, can we still reclaim our innocence



Cover me in gasoline
Wipe away those tears of blood again
And the punchline to the joke is asking
Someone save us

Saturday, February 24, 2007

-xing's hse for steamboat.
-was entertained when i saw milo rubbed its butt against e flr.
-milo kept "attacking" ore.
-got 4 hardcore du gui $$. jaei, zixiang, mian bao & eve.
-another grp who gambled using sweets.
-another grp who plays chinese chess -_-
(me & ronnie, edwin & willy. hahaha!
what's lacking is a pot of chinese tea. haha!)
-milo kept barking.
-milo kept running arnd.



disappointed, totally.
slip into this tragedy.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

went out w my clique for steamboat & supposedly, movies. but dont have enough seats so ended up e guys went dota-ing.
then e girls went for arcading.
then went to marina. too early for steamboat went to arcade agn.
panic park! damn fun!!!!!! me & jaei ended up w brusies. lol!
we each spent a good $20. but.. damn shuang! hahaha!
aft steamboat, walked all e way to esplanade.
came to a dead end. blocked by e construction site. but there's this path which can lead us to somewhere. e path's not tht broad. and when u look down, its e water alr.
here's e pics.
jingle, jasmen, jaei & i took tht path (i also dont know why we walked tht path. "legs itchy"), while e rest stayed put at where they were.

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i was scared okay! i dont want to fall down. but the scenery u see frm there. wow... :D
this is only a part of what we saw.

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walked back to e place we ate.waited for e bus.while waiting..
a lame vid. jaei, hazel, ling & me.

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something damn disgusting happened, really turns me off.
really kinda change my impression of em.


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in e mrt, e guys took lots of pic, kept taking. non stop. -_-
ling and me looked at each other speechless.

post a few here. (:

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Monday, February 19, 2007

17/02, cny eve
went to wen li lou to have our reunion dinner. (w dad's side)
1 yr met them once only. so ended up, i actually mixed up my cousins' name. i called desmond, darren. and i didn't realise even thou desmond gave me this weird look until carol called him desmond. :/


first time lao yu sheng. haha! other than e raw fish, nth's nice. nth.
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this year's main character, liyang! :D
poor thing but its not abuse. totally for his own good. he's TOO active.
he just learnt how to walk. yet, he's starting to run, practically everywhere anywhere. every sec he's moving. serious.
he dont know when to stop. if u carry him for more than 10 secs, he will start to struggle then his head will face towards e flr. hinting to u he wants to go down.
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took lots of liyang's photo :D

he loves to play & touch anything.

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siao siao, he knows which button to hang up e call or ans e call.

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he didn't wants to leave e driver seat.
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18/02, cny (chu yi)
me w mom.

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dad went to fetch liyang & family. when i board e car, e first thing i saw was tht big blue back bump on his forehead. he got it tht morning. run arnd at home and fell.

he was actually wearing a bear costume. but when he saw himself in e mirror. he shy. then don't know how, he kept drooling. end up, e bear costume was soaked w his saliva. damn funny. so got to make do w just a tee & pants.

reach 2nd uncle's hse. put him down. thot since its indoors, so don't need e dog-like thingy, then he started running arnd agn exploring. then... tadang! ran, fell, head knocked agnst e wall at the same spot.

see tht bump. freaking big & red.

trying to pacify him w food.
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those tears.
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me & darren
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me & desmond & ba gua. ahahah! (he's in secondary 1. yet, his height is 154. mine: 153 -_-)
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haven got e pic i took w carol & cheryl.
aft uploading all e pics, i realise i didnt take photo w my dad.
its been really a long time since Huang family took a pic tgether.
went to my dad's ex-classmate's hse. her dog reminds me of yumi.
tht night went home, found out tht e woman who took my dog away actually lives below me.
19/02, cny (chu er)
went to ba po's hse.
her parrot damn beautiful.
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then to my mom's side.
me: ma mi, wei se me mei you ren gei wo hong bao?
ma mi: ying wei ah gong hai mei you si san nian, cannot give hong bao.
me: you zhe zhong shi de meh?
ma mi: bu dong
bro: you.
me: ................
so means, for e nxt two years! i cant get hong bao frm my mother's side!
its a freaking two years!

went home, went to e woman's hse to find yumi.
my dad's right. im too naive.
she really deny everything. what can i do. nth.
so what if all e descriptions fit in nicely. she deny it!
my dad's always right. i can never find yumi ever agn.

cny sucks. other than taking hong baos, and meeting up w some of your lovable cousins everything sucks.
cny is e only time i felt like & was really torn into 2 pieces.
im not sun wu kong. i cant replicate myself. even though i really hope i could.

i hate to be a woman.
emotional & sentimental.
i want to be like my bro.
w tht cool/emotionless face even though his heart's also in a mess.
unlike him, i chose to hide my face.

tht gentleness u gave her 24/7
i can nvr have it.
because of her, u waited for us patiently.
i'd rather u call us and scold e hell out of us even though its cny.
because of her, u listened.
& bring us to another her.

its all an irony.totally.


i'd run, if only i've e courage.
i'd jump, if only i've e courage.
i'd..,
i'd.....,
only if i've e courage.
perphaps e cut wasnt deep enough.




my soul's deeply grieved.
to be strong. its tiring.
tht smile, how long can it last.
all i need now is to sleep.

On bended knees, Lord, I cry to Thee,
To thy cross I flee.

Friday, February 16, 2007

went back to zss!!! :DDD
e best part of e concert was e vid on e life of zhenghua's students in sch & jinfeng cum tommy's Da Yan Jing. laugh like siao. but both of em can really sing man. lol!
if mos manage to find e vid. i will post up here. damn entertaining!
esp e part whereby e guy shouted LAO SHI MEI YOU LAI!!!!
then everyone jumped w joy & there's even a guy who was so touched tht he cried.
they make it slow-mo. (their actions).
jaei say tht guy reminds her of jonathan law. e liu pi ti guy!
its true yeh?!
whenever teacher didnt come he will sure be e first one to know. then he will run arnd in e class just like a small kid w tht superman pose. both hands in e air & shout YAY!!!! LAO SHI MEI YOU LAI!!!!
but tht kuku, sometimes got e wrong info. while doing tht, when e teacher came in then he will quickly run back to his seat w tht super act-guai, innocent expression on his face. but okay, at least cos of him & his "stunts", lessons weren't tht boring.
esp he & ms may tan. -_-

everyone eat tom yum until forget me except bok. lol!
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everytime. stack all e cups up tgether. ask one person to go put back. haha! same logic applys to e tom yum bowls.
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back to our 4e2 classroom. same old seating. me & jaei studying. jasmen playing hp.
amos, & kel smiling & listening to teacher. jian cheng prove to e teacher tht he really got
bring his maths ten years series to sch.
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tadang! our prettttyyyyy faces. lol!
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outside 4e2 classroom.
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yay, 4e2 (: all e memories. smuggling food into e classroom. stomping out frm classroom in e middle of e lesson, hid books in e ceiling. lol!!! tht's classic!
can still rmb how 3e2 cause mdm su to cry for 2 times and walked out of e class. and how many teachers complained abt our class. stating tht we are e express techinal class. even thou its e class w the most prefects & its e 2nd best class. and furthermore e culprits were e prefects! lol!!! those times... hahaha!

e best&clearest pic of 4e2. during cny 2005 :D
say YUM SAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! :DDDDDD
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okay, mos made these.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
my clique! = when we were all sec 1
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!! all those toot & song hair style.
look at all of us now. 4 years only. but yet. e change's so big. another 4 years? how will we look like and how much will we change. change for e better or worst?
i really hope we can still come out tgther for gathering even when we are 60/70 years old.
then let's have a race using our wheelchairs. lolololololol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


my pumpkin-like & center parting hairstyle, jaei's ... no words to describe hairstyle & her signature one-sided smile, hoonie's slighty center parting hairstyle w tht stern look(aft yu dao wo, then noe how to smile eh? *shy*), weiling's TOTTAALLLYYYY clearly shown center parting w lots of gel & combed cum tied neatly hairstyle, sherrill's ah-toot face w tht pair of song specs, hazel's i-have-nth-to-say expression w mushroom-like hairstyle, ah bok's also center parting hairstyle & chubby face lolol!, yihui's neatly pinned w gel hairstyle & sick face & lastly, serene's also neatly pinned hairstyle w clipss, hairband & also chubby face! ahhaahah!

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(wah lau, i rmb kelvin & jasmen shorter than me! jian cheng, ping & boon not sure. but how abt now!
kao!
taller than me by........ :@)
boon's bowl-like hairstyle, w LOTS of fats & double chin, ping's ...okay, he look okay actually, kel's erm.. he looks damn cute. but where your cuteness went to!?!?, jasmen's HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! square tok hairstyle w tht innocent face!! read your shou ce!!! hahahahah!!!!, jian cheng's like-grass hairstyle & tht ah pek look & lastly amos's hamburger's face!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAAHA!!!!!!! w tht neatly combed hairstyle w lots of gel.
boon & mos can go be models for slimming ads. like seriously.

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okayokay, but now all of us frm ugly ducklings become swans :D
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! yeh baby!

Thursday, February 15, 2007

exams; officially over! :D
finally got myself another set of clothes. like finally.

tmr's gna be a GREAT, HAPPY day! gna go back to zss w my clique!
TOMYUM-ING! HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!
but.. .. the security guards better don't chase us away. i want to wear slippers! :/
going to bandage my toe to make it look really like my BIG toe.
hoonie says its cute :X HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

i want to take pic w my clique outside our 4e2 classroom. 3e2,2e2&1e2 :D
& of cos! our bowls of tom yum. bandungs blah blah blah. yeh baby! back to zhenghua sec!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

having runs for e fourth day. (now i wonder its food posioning or stress or don't have enough slp. okay, totally no link to runs.)
sick, it always happens during exams period. i need to SLEEP. SLEEP!!
cant concentrate at all. stared into e space for half an hour.
but thank God, manage to complete e paper just in time.
yay! left one more paper tmr :D





I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your girlboyfriend took.
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook.
I held you close as we both shook
for the last time take a good hard look.



the pages all are torn and frayed

(iwantedtosayhi;1302)

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

-one paper down. 3 more to go.
-having runs.


10/02
(e only thing i rmb frm tday's r.e. -: even though environment do plays a part but most importantly, to be happy or not, it's all in the mind. how true.)

went china town,esplanade,temple & finally at 1am went to changi for supper!! :D
w jaei & her mom & lots of elderly ppl. (rc)



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haha! candid shot.
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haha! jian gui!
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Thursday, February 8, 2007

its 4.30am now.
watching some dance vids.
& feeling freeeeeaakkinggg hungry. yet, lazy to go get food.

a good dancer.
how & needs what to reach there.
what does e 'good' constitutes of.






expect the unexpected.
just fall back.

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

got a qi pao, yes yes! Q-I P-A-O. me, huangkaili. e shorty. hah! of cos sent it for alteration. make it short :D
& got to get a pair of heels.
however, those horrible smell of new shoes & bright lightning gave me headache throughout e whole day!
two days of shopping comes down to only 1 conclusion: i dont really like shopping!
i wish tht there would be a software whereby i could typed in e colour, e type & etc of e apparel im looking for, then tadang!!! e shop name pops out! then i can go straight there & get what i want!
better than walking from shop to shop, hoping tht something can catch my attention but no! :/
then end up finding a place to sit & eat. shopping somehow meant eating for jaei, haze & me. it always does. most of e time: wisma's food republic's ha gao.
if only teleport machine do really exist.
i would teleport myself to the shops, then back agn either to home or somewhere else.



"who is God to you? ans w your heart & not your head"

this qn by bro tse koon had me emo for don't know how long w a bit of guilt.